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i was playing online wheel of fortune.
and it was the jackpot round.
and i had to guess a phrase.
some reason, i didn't guess a single one of the letters.
the phrase appeared.
it was "will you marry me."
i started crying.
i'm a fucking mess.
well, on the bright side of things...
i've always wanted to try oxycontin.
and... now i can fuck any body that i want.
in all reality i'd rather just have you
whatever...
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[18 Mar 2007|07:26pm] |
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foreveris:charlottedylanamcfee&michaelandrewellis
this has been the longest weekend-or-so of my life.
the past few days, i had never cared less.
about you, about how i look, about our future.
i had never been so crushed.
i had never hated my life that much...
i felt like i didn't even know you...
i grew ten years in one day.
i cried like the dickens.
i didn't eat a single thing for three entire days.
But, today is such a new day.
i know it's going to work.
i've never felt so optimistic.
i've never loved you more.
oh and i ate something..
i've never been so sure that it's gonna work.
i've never looked THIS hot.
i've never wanted you this bad...
thebetterifeelaboutmyselfthemoreineedtocrawlintoyourarms.
but i can't, because it needs to work this time.
iloveyouimissyouiwantyouineedyou
we will always be soulmates.
i will always be yours.
i can't wait until it's ok again.
i'm sick of getting hurt...
and i don't want to hurt you anymore.
this is for the us we've been missing.
i promise this is going to work.
we will be pure, like snow, like gold.
like that one innocent summer.
before everything happened.
<3tilldeathdouspart<3
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[17 Mar 2007|09:58pm] |
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i keep feeling like any minute, i'm going to wake up...
this can't be real.
i just don't know what to do with myself.
I have no more anti-drug...
I just don't care about anything anymore.
charlotte mcfee is dead.
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[11 Mar 2007|11:24pm] |
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I smoked a 14 gram blunt today. it was... ridiculously big. Come to think of it, whatshisname's 1/2s are always bigger than regular so it was problaby 15 or 16 grams... anyway. i'm wrecked. There was this girl at a party i went to this weekend and she was talking, more like screaming to her friend all like "LYK OMGZZZ, blahblahblah, I am SOoOoOoOo muuch better looking than that girl... OMGZ did you see so-and-so?!!... OMFG thats the guy that i fucked last night!!!!!!... OH MY goddddz i luv this songgggg.... BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH.." and apparently right before kate was going to break a bottle over her head, i told her to shut the FUCK UP and told her to keep her saggy tits out of my face. She really did have saggy tits, too. I hate it when girls that i clearly saw being a friendless loser is now opening their legs to the public to gain popularity. And they look so fucking awful at my school. The philly radiostation Q102 came to our high school once and right after they left, announced to about four states that North Penn had THEE sluttiest girls they had ever seen at any high school or club on the upper east coast. Because people just lay down, or even stand and just have sex at every single dance. like, several different girls at every dance will line up a group of guys and just give them head one after the other. like a fucking seal.
THIS is why i go to night school-- STDs are pretty much airborne there.
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[08 Mar 2007|10:44pm] |
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MSI- You'll rebel 2 anything (aslong as its not challenging) |
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SOOOO guess who was violently vomiting all over my bathroom ALL-DAY-LONG. oh not to mention PISSING OUT OF MY ASS. ehhh..... yeah.
Ever heard of Noro's Virus?! Wellll practically the entire town of Lansdale has it right now, don't fucking no why, all i know is i will NEVER trust pre-creamcheesed bagels sold at grungey convenience stores again.. those fucking ethnic bastards.
gkjlfhdhasafklgsh;dhsgdj. woahhhh the best thing about this Noro's Virus bullllllshit is that i have an excuse to be on a DOUBLE dose of heavy narcotics
aaaaand my pupils officially cover the area of my Iris. CHA-CHING and my daily goal is met. SCORE.
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| to my darling boyfriend |
[07 Mar 2007|12:54pm] |
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someone needs to kick your ass into gear, you fucking worthless slacker. You're not only throwing YOUR life down the drain but you're throwing MY life down the drain. Grow some balls and take on some responsibility. i love you, but right now i do not respect you. You do NOTHING and you do it ALL day long. All you do is sit around and smoke pot. I'm sick of it. go to school, get a job, and stop smoking all my fucking cigarettes.
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[06 Mar 2007|10:25am] |
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i don't even know where to start...i can't believe i haven't updated in a year.
let's see.. i go to night school. I quit my job.
i'm still with michael.
i still don't really know if he's cheating on me or not.
i'm really fucking... sad.
i want to.. "give up."
i want to give up......
i want to give up...
i want to.... give up.
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[14 Apr 2006|08:51pm] |
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party monster soundtrack |
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i'm about three good chugs away from drunk.
so..
bye.
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[06 Feb 2006|11:49am] |
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its mah burrrrrthday. Honor Me. yeeeaah soo my birthday always suckss. but saturdays party was kickass minus the all-day puke marathon on sundayy.. yuck. whatev, i just hope i get laid today. peace out.
s w e e t & s i x t e e n
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[15 Oct 2005|12:47am] |
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sexy mike guitar playing |
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i had a threesome, it was more awesome than your sex life will ever be.
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[24 Sep 2005|04:29am] |
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mars volta |
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it's been a while. it's been a long while, so much has happened that i can't even explain.... i love you kelly, by the way...
M E R R E L
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[27 May 2005|08:56am] |
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i WILL remember to call kelly.
i WILL get laid today.
i WILL.... blahhh i'm bored, peace out.
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[19 May 2005|09:03am] |
everything is GREAT.
i love michael<3 31605
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[21 Jan 2005|08:41am] |
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peephole by system of a down |
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it's been a while.
a lot is different.
mychael and i....
can't even begin to explain.
i cheated; it was over; he started dating my best friend THE DAY AFTER; he says he still loves me; and that he wants to be with me and everything; and that he can't stand her; my heart still hurts; i fell like total crap.
my dads moving to california. yeahhh.
everything sucks.
char.
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[16 Oct 2004|12:47pm] |
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wow. don't have a comp anymore. at the library. ghetto. i'm going out with mike again. peace out homies.
oh, and i'm not pregnant, duh.
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[20 Sep 2004|08:41am] |
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yeah. in comp app class. ..yay.... not. nothin to really say. whatever. bye.
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[12 Sep 2004|12:00am] |
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the strokes<333 |
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yeah. so. remember when i used to like, care about this thing? yeah. me either. so uhh. school started. and uhh. nothing is new.
i wish i were more meaningful.
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[01 Sep 2004|02:50pm] |
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yeah..so i got back from cali on the 24, and turns out my brother moved out, my mom was in the looney bin, my step dad was crazy, and yeah. so i was like homeless for a week it was crazy fun shit man. i had the best time in my whole fuckin life. yeah. i'm not looking forward to school. i would post my schedule but they mailed it to my old house. goddammit. aright whatever peace out g dawg.
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[13 Aug 2004|12:39pm] |
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i'm gone to california on the 14th. which is tomarrow. be back the 24th. i'll miss you retards.
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[07 Aug 2004|12:23pm] |
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I never update anymore. i<3stevelynn. i like the weather right now. it feels like the beginning of autumn. i like it very much.
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